I went up to the ranch by myself yesterday. Hubby had to work. He took Friday off to be with me and to go with me and drive up there. It has been hard seeing her empty corral, without her friendly face in it calling to me. Scout has been very patient and understanding with me. She lets me hug her and rub her all over. Even Gigondas yesterday was very patient and quietly came up behind me and gave a big sigh while I cleaned out her pen and then followed me around as I mucked her corral. I raked Beauty's pen, too, and got it ready for the momma horse next door that Cathy wants to move in there to wean her baby. It wasn't easy to do and I cried the whole time, but it was something I needed to do. I have 4 other horses that need love and attention and I'm doing my best to give it to them, but it is just so darn hard right now. I wish to thank all of you who sent kind wishes and thoughts and prayers. Losing a horse is NOT an easy thing, especially for those of us who love them as companions, as a part of our families. I know I'll never fully understand her death, especially because she was so young, but...like I said, I have 4 other horses that need Mom and I need to get back and be there for them. These are my last photos of Beauty. She always whinnied when she saw my car drive up to the ranch gate. I miss her whinney, her bright personality, and her calmness. She had little patches of white hair on her butt and I miss those, too.